6 Months Ago

Six months ago our lives completely changed. It was a day just like the rest until I got the terrible phone call that Brian was no longer with us. Our world was flipped upside and turned inside out. Brian was such a great husband and father and every day that goes by we miss him dearly. I miss having him there to talk with, laugh with, hold my hand, even having him get mad at me when the sign he was painting didn't work out right and jus being able to see his face. The kids miss him throwing them in the air, tickling them, mowing the lawn, rocking them when they are hurt, putting them to bed at night and a million other things that he did. We've had to make lots of big changes in our lives. We sold our house, moved in with parents, had a baby, changed schools and in some ways have had to grow up faster than most kids. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him a hundred times a day. When I pass a construction site, or hear a motorcycle, look in my kids faces and see him there, when I spend time with his family, when I see a little girl holding her Daddy's hand, or a little boy at T-ball with his dad I think of him. Some days are harder than others, but the most amazing thing about this whole crazy life, is that I am still here. As much as it hurts to have him gone, we still go on living. We laugh and play and spend lots of time with family. We especially love our sweet little Eli, who spent his last little while with Daddy in Heaven. We sing songs, we color, we say prayers to a loving Heavenly Father. We go to church (why? I'm not sure since I don't hear a darn thing). We go on vacations, we have Birthday parties and we do all of this because we know that Brian wants all of us to be happy. We love him so much and miss him, but we know one day we will see him again. We love you Bri.